To my twin boys,
Today is your first birthday! I can’t believe we are already here and that we have known each other a whole year. Do you know how much joy you have brought our family? It’s hard to picture what life was like without you two in it.
Our journey to each other was filled with ups and downs. For so long we never even knew if it would be possible to have another baby, and to be blessed with two?! Truth be told, when I found out we were having twins, I was a little scared. But all those nerves dissipated when I laid my eyes on you two. My boys. I held you both on my chest and I knew everything would be okay.
Caring for twins pushed me to my limits in every way possible. The bottles, the diapers, the night wakings, and the tears! Nothing could have prepared me for the challenges that the first year with twins could bring. But I know that I was made to be a twin mom (your mom!) and I feel doubly blessed to be the mom of two perfect boys.
Sonny, my baby A, my little mama’s boy. From your first breath, you’ve had a special attachment to me. When you cry, there’s a good chance that you either want mom or food (and you’ve always been that way!) You love to cuddle and love to be rocked to sleep. Last night I rocked you until you fell asleep, your little arms were wrapped around me. And whenever I go to lay you in your crib, you like to go in for just one more little hug.
I can always count on you to wake us up each morning my Sonny sunshine. You like to rise with the sun (it’s pretty fitting we named you Sonny!) You have never slept as well as your brother. One time when you were four weeks old, you woke up in the middle of the night for a feeding. We went to wake your brother up to give him a bottle too, but instead had to rush him to the ER for oxygen. I thank God every day that you woke us up that night.
Theo, my baby B, my little miracle. At each ultrasound we would check on you sweet boy. How is the heartbeat? How big is baby B? At every appointment, they would tell us you were thriving. Against the odds. You are a fighter. You have faced obstacle after obstacle, and you keep fighting. I will never forget how sick you were at just four weeks. I prayed to God to take all of your pain and give it to me. You are the toughest little boy and you make this mama so proud!
I love to watch you suck your thumb my Theo Bud and I love to watch you sleep. You sleep later than your brother so I usually get to peak at you when I get him out of his crib. I smile at you and take photos because you are literally the cutest baby I have ever seen. You are also the sweetest. When you were first born and they put you both on my chest, your brother was crying. You immediately went over to him to try and soothe him.
I hope you always take care of each other. At just one year old, you have each shown your ability to either protect or comfort the other, and please always do that! Do it for your mom okay?
I hope you have the most wonderful birthday my sweet boys. This day always felt so far away (especially when I think back to those newborn days), but somehow here we are! I’m sad to be losing my baby boys, but I am so excited to watch you change and grow. I love you both more than you will ever know.
Love, mama